I messed up!

Yesterday I went to a party of a friend of mine. The party was in his house, so his little brother was also there. But the thing is that I have a problem with his little brother, who is only a few months younger that me. (let's call him John) What happened is that on another party last year he was kind of like a total asshole with me. Basically, he wanted to get into my pants, but I didn't let him, because I'm not some kind of whore who would do stuff like that with a guy I just met. So since then every time I see him in school he walks or looks away quickly, which is totally childish, btw.
So yesterday not a lot of people were invited. It was more like a little come together that a party. So there wasn't really that big chance of him ignoring me.
I didn't really pay attention to him, since we're not really having the best relationship. But as it got later, people just got a little crazy. Nobody was completely drunk, but everybody has had a few drinks. So you can imagine how the ambiente was. At some point John started talking to me, always with his hand on my back or my leg. Honestly I didn't care about his behavior towards me. To be completely honest, I even enjoyed knowing that he still was interested in me. After a while he asked me if we should go to his room. My sober self came back and said instantly no! Other that not wanting to be in the same situation as last year, he has actually told people back then that we slept together. So I had enough reason to just walk away from this dough bag. I don't know why, but I kept talking to him, until he convinced me to go to his room. (Biggest mistake of the night) He promised me, that we would only do whatever I wanted, nothing else. But once in his room he started undressing me and laying me down on his bed. Everything else from this point on, I leave it up to your imagination.
As you probably can imagine, after coming back to the party again, he totally ignored me, and didn't talk to me at all anymore. So I'd say that he got what he wanted, and so him "mission was completed."

Now I can't say that I am totally regretting this, that I am the saddest human being on earth right now. But it wasn't a good choice, and I was able to prevent what happened. He is a total idiot, who doesn't care about me or about how I feel. In other words, he is a fuckboy.
The only thing I can do is to tell myself no to do stupid stuff like that anymore. Let's see if my drunk self will observe that rule ;)

Lots of love and stay save,
Lena ♥

Partytime!

Last friday I went to a party and I was very excited to go. Mainly because I agreed with a boy that we would meet there. But he canceled on last minute and I was a little bit disapointed in him. But that didn't keep me from going to that party. I was happy that I could spend some time with my friends and just have some fun with them.
Later that night a guy came to the party, who graduated last year. I always saw him at school, and like most girls, I had a crush on him. But the thing was, that last year he still had a girlfriend. Every girl that liked him still looked at him with eyes in shape of hearts when he passed by. But I always played it cool, since I wouldn't be that kind of girl.
But since beginning of this year he is single. I actually think that most of the people don't even know that, but trough my circle of friends, I got to that information. I obviously am not stupid to tell everybody, but I prefer to keep that info to myself.
Anyways, he came to the party and I felt like talking to him. So I walked up to him and started a conversation, - He was such a nice guy and at some point he asked my if I wanted to go away from the crowd. From this point on I leave it up to your imagination about what happened. But I'd just say that it turned out to be a better party that expected.

If you want to know what happened, leave a comment below. Maybe I keep telling you guys about it;)

Love,
Lena