What will happen?

Two days ago there was a mass shooting in Orlando. A man walked into a gay bar and shot around him, and killed 50 people and injured 53 . I guess that everybody knows that already, because the whole world is talking about it. But I think that it really such a big problem that hasn´t been solved yet, and will still take a very lonk time to solve. People who "suffer" under homophobia don't are affraid. They are not scared. They a simply assholes. How come that someone has so much hate against people, who are no different that anybody else, and hurt them and their families in such a way?
This horrible event showed us that this world is still far from living in peace and equality. We can only hope that noting like this will happen again, but let's be real...we all know that their are many other people out there that have horrible ideas and thoughts on mind...so we are never save, we never know when the next tradedy will happen.

Please, spread love and prevend hate as much as you can. This world needs it more than we can imagen.

Lots of love for all of you,
Lena ♥

I feel weird :(

A few years ago (3 years, to be exact) I had a relationship with this guy. We were kind of a on-and-off-couple and when I moved away to another country it was basically over for good. Even though we kept on talking cute for almost half a year, we knew that this relationship can´t go on for a long time. The thing is that since beginning of this year he is dating again, while I am just being me - doing crazy stuff. (read my other posts, if you don´t know what I am talking about) So I was sad that he has moved on, but that the same time I was living my own life, without really thinking about him, or feeling like writing a message to him or anything of that kind of thing.

But since a few days I think about him ALL THE TIME! I am not even kidding with that expression. He is really all the time on my mind, without a pause. Not matter what I do - play tenis, being in school, read a book, watch vídeos...I could be doing anything and he won´t leave my mind.
Sometimes I feel like writing him something, but then I don´t do it, because I know that that is not the right thing to do. But I honestly don´t know that to do:( It is not possibly that I start missing him again, after so much time has past...is it?

I am really confused...any advice, or help tips?

Love, Lena