...and the story goes on

So in yesterday´s blog I just described quickly how I suddenly realized that all that perfect picture planted in my head would never work out like that. Well...that actually didn´t happen so suddenly at all.
I left out a big part of the story. The part were I started talking to him. Now don´t get me wrong! I did not say one thing yesterday and today another. I started talking to him, but I really have never met him.
At one point I decided that I would send him a message online, to see how conversation would work out, if he knew who he was talking to, etc. So it actually started out as a very normal conversation and I thought that he clearly knew about me. But still, at one point I asked him if he knew that I know his father. He didn´t answer just with `Yes´ or `No´ but instead he said that Yeah, his father might have mentioned something to him about me. That made me happy, even though I still was sure that I knew more about him that he knew about me.

I was the happiest person every time I saw that he answered my messages and that our conversation would keep going. But there was one thing, which was that our conversation actually didn´t go so fluently. I really wanted this to happen and under no circumstances I wanted us to stop talking. But the truth is that the chat seemed forced - from both sides.
That was when I realized that our story would never be as perfect as I have imagend. Even if we ever would meet and maybe even have a relationship, it wouldn´t go so smoothly as thought.

Even though me talking to him might have destroyed the perfect dream about him, I am happy that I did. In this way I realize that he is not as perfect as his father says, and he might actually not be the man that I will spend the rest of my life with. (Even though deep down, I still hope for that to happen)
But first, I have to meet him in person - I am really excited for that to happen someday...IF it happens someday.

Now I gave you more detail about the perfect boy. But...there is still more to it. If you want to know, let me know. Or should I stop talking about him and change topic again? Haha, let me know!

Kisses,
Lena