Just writing...

Today I don´t have a topic to write about, I don´t know what I am about to write, there is nothing on my mind that I want to specifically talk about. I am just in the mood to write...that literally just it. So yeah..thanks for reading my blog today, I really appreciate it, and at the same time I am sorry for wasting your time.

Do you ever feel happy, sad, empty, blessed and all of that the same time? I kind of feel like that right now, and I can´t really tell why. I am not sure if there is any explenation for that.
I am just sitting here, listenting to some Shawn Mendes, enjoying his angelic voice, and with nothing and at the same time, everything on my mind. I honestly feel like he speaks to me through his songs. I am sure that there are many people, specially girls, who feel the same way. But still...that feeling makes me feel special.

Thinking about that guy, who hasn´t been in your life for a long time, hurts a lot if he was a guy who made you feel so much at the same time, and who showed and teached so much about life, in his very own way. Yeah...that hurts a lot.
People tend to say "You´ll get over him, there is going to come another guy into your life, someone who is way better for you, someone who will make you feel that way again, maybe even better." But what if that is not true? What if that other guy is never going to come? You even try to reach out for new possibilities, but still...nothing and no one is replacement for that one guy in the past. So yeah...that really does hurt. Nobody teaches you how to overcome those feelings. Probably because nobody knows how it should be possible to overcome it. There is no way, you just never will completly get over it. You might be alright someday again, but you will never be as great as if you would have never met him in the first place.

Shawn Mendes has just such a good voice...next year I am going to go to one of his concerts. I already bought the tickets and I am so happy about it. I can´t wait to hear his beautiful voice in real life. And the lyrics really do speak to me..it is amazing.

Have you seen movies like A walk to remember or The longest ride? They are completely different, but they have one thing in common - the beautiful and emotional love story. Even though the caracteres also have problems, which make their realtionships hard sometimes, they find their way back to each other, because that is what true love does...it finds the way back to the ones who need it from each other. People say that that kind of love is not true and only exists in movies, and yes..I also have seen so perfect love only in movies, but I still believe in it. I just have to. I have to believe that that kind of love is out there, and that someday it might find me. Or me and my loved one to be might find each other on half way. If I don´t believe in that, than no thought of love is going to be left for me.

I am probably already boring you..I am surprised that you read all of that, and are still reading this here, at the very end. So again, thank you very much for reading today slightly different blog. I hope you still enjoyed it.

Kisses to you,
Lena ♥